[pensamiento] what if ?

What if I throw it all away ?

What if I give up at the middle?

What if I don't love you anymore?

What if I never did?

What if I wasn't alive?

What if I wasn't gay?

What if? What if?

I can keep trying,

But something tells me

Things will never change,

A couple of beers now & then won't change anything

A way out of this hole

A way to another reality

What if there wasn't another reality ?

Where would i stand?

Would you still love me like you say you do?

Would you still care?

I can't even cry, 

I can't even smile,

I can't even hide it anymore

Who I am, becomes who am I?

& the confusion starts all over again..

What if I was young?

When is too much, too much?

It doesn't matter, 

Tonight I sleep alone

One more time ..