[vida] Escribir/Crecer

Me eh dado cuenta que en realidad escribir es dificil cuando hay reglas, bueno, no reglas, sino, estandares. Como en todo, no puedes solo escribir y ya. Siempre habra quien diga bien o no. Hasta yo lo hago cuando alguien escribe como niño de preescolar. Pero, en una carrera, en algo que me interesa como escribir guiones de Television, son demasiadas cosas, que aunque siempre uno las tiene en la mente, cuando lo tienes que redactar y mostrar, "x pasara porque y hara z cosa", es dificil, es como, no poder expresarte con palabras, y para alguien que es mas movimiento que nadam se vuelve complicado. Pero pronto terminare todo. Solo es cuestion de organizarme, lo cual ya eh empezado.

Ultimamente, me he confrontado, o mas bien, mi psicologo me ha confrontado, a que ya no soy un "chavito" (como dice el), "si estas chavo, pero ya no eres un chavito", a lo que obviamente, me niego rotundamente, pero aun me quedo con la pregunta, ¿Hasta cuando empezare a aceptar y aceptar el crecimiento inevitable? ¿Cuando dejare de pensar que tengo 17 y decir tengo 23? No tengo respuesta a esto, sin embarto, escuchando a blink182, encuentro el soundtrack de este momento de mi vida.



Tal vez pronto cambie mi forma de ver la vida, pero en este momento:
"I Never Want To Act My Age"

[video] PSA "The Kids Are Listening"

Just be careful with what words you use, and how you treat someone. Stop bullying, & if you are one, look in the mirror & see why are you doing it? What's in stake for you?

[musik] New Bon Iver ! (finally!)

De nombre homonimo, Bon Iver, publicara su nuevo disco en junio 21, por Jagjuwuar en Estados Unidos. Ahora que comienze la cuenta regresiva !

[frase] Ginette Paris

"La mortalidad es una limitacion absouluta para la infinita  profundidad de la experiencia amorosa"

Ginette Paris "La Vida Interior (El Despertar del Inconsciente)"

[photo] Darren Criss Billboard Magazine

Just because...

[pensamiento] cold

i want to feel the cold wind again

a black hole of eternity

a smile that fades to obscurity

another pointless hour of insecurity

where are you in my time of need?

where are you when i want to feed?

the war is over & the wind rises

I feel the cold touching me

but it's not him i wanna feel

it's your touch i need

is your body next to me,

your body i miss

the wind stops & everything turns black

i see you by my side

you smile back at me, & i wake up

it's a dream that leads to misery

a reality check & a goodbye i can't process

i go back to sleep

back to the eternal black hole

while my face fades into a black stare

[pensamiento] thin walls

paper thin walls in my bedroom

i can hear the sound you make

when your screwing with my neighboor

the squeaky sound of your voice

the scream of lust & the bed noise

the guilt & lie

you tell him,

when you say goodbye

then you crawl in my bed,

hoping the smell has fade.

have you no shame?

[musik] 17 years ago, this day.

We still miss you. We'll always do. But things happen for a reason. The voice of a generation? Maybe, but somehow i think it goes beyond that. It wasn't my generation, but your music still speaks to me. Thank you & keep resting in peace. Kurt Cobain (20/02/1967-05/04/1994).

[pensamiento] what if ?

What if I throw it all away ?

What if I give up at the middle?

What if I don't love you anymore?

What if I never did?

What if I wasn't alive?

What if I wasn't gay?

What if? What if?

I can keep trying,

But something tells me

Things will never change,

A couple of beers now & then won't change anything

A way out of this hole

A way to another reality

What if there wasn't another reality ?

Where would i stand?

Would you still love me like you say you do?

Would you still care?

I can't even cry, 

I can't even smile,

I can't even hide it anymore

Who I am, becomes who am I?

& the confusion starts all over again..

What if I was young?

When is too much, too much?

It doesn't matter, 

Tonight I sleep alone

One more time ..